I suppose you could argue that I started this out of inspiration from the article about the girl from BU with cancer. But, I’d like to think that she only influenced me to come public with my thoughts. I’ve had a private blog for about a year. Granted, I haven’t written too much in it, but it’s there. Now, I’m not so afraid of what the public has to say. I guess that’s always been a problem with me; I’m afraid of public opinion and how people view me. I’m not sure if that developed before or after the myasthenia. Actually, definitely before. I’m not proud of that and I highly doubt that it has helped me throughout these past, what, six months? May-June-July-August-September-October-November-December. Crap. Eight. Where the hell has the time gone? That sentence just made me feel old.
This year has definitely been more than I anticipated. But, I’m not going to recap the year. It’s over and done with. And I understand that I can’t change it, though I probably would give anything just to turn back time. But, then again, wouldn’t we all? Everyone has something that they regret and change. Then, there are those who have no regrets. Or so they say. I would say that they’re lucky, but I don’t think it’s luck. I think it’s more that they have a good outlook on life. I need to obtain that. I’m on my way, just not at that “no regrets” point yet.
Let’s hope that 2008 has a lot in store for me. I’m not stupid; I know that the year does nothing and it’s all me. But, I like the idea of having a fresh start. If that’s even possible. I’d really like to be a better person. I feel as though I lost myself at some point this year and I need to regain my bearings. Could I have lost myself? It’s possible. Do I think I did? I can’t answer that. I really don’t know. Read the rest of this entry »
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